实习医生格蕾第6季

◆实习医生格蕾”第一季第二集

It'sallaboutlines:

Thefinishinglineistheendoftheresidency

waitinginlinesforachanceattheoperatingtable

andthenthere'sthemostimportantlinethelineparatingyoufromthepeopleyouwork

with

Itdoesn'thelptogettoofamiliartomakefriends,youneedboundaries,betweenyouandthe

eoplearefartoomessy

It'sallaboutlines:drawinglinesinthesandandpraylikehellnoonecrossthem

End:Butthere'resomelines..

that'rewaytoodangeroustocross..

Here'swhatIknow

Ifyouarewillingtotakethechancethattheviewfromothersideisspectacular

所有这一切都是关于“线”的，线的终点是实习期的结束，接着排成直线来等待机会上手术台，然后是最重

要的那条“线”将你和你的同事们隔开，界限并没有帮助我熟悉周围，或是结交朋友，你需要一个分界线，

在你和这个世界之间，其他人都忙的一团糟，一切都是关于“线”的，在沙子上画线...然后拼命祈祷没有人

去踩坏它们。在某些问题上，你必须作出决定。边界并不能把你和其他人隔开，他们依然会进来生活是杂

乱无章的但所有的一切都是我们自己造成的所以你可以用尽一生去画无数的线。你也可以跨越这些线去好

好生活可那总有一些线非常危险无法越过的路，如果你愿意去尝试，另一面的风景将令你着迷。

◆实习医生格蕾”第一季第四集

Iwishtherewerearulebookaboutintimacysomekindofguidethatcantellyouwhenyou

crosstheline

Itwouldbeniceifyoucouldeitcoming

AndIdon'tknowhowitfitonthemap

Youtakeit,whereyoucangetit

Andkeepit,aslongasyoucan

Andasforrules,maybethere'renone

Maybetherulesofintimacyaresomethingyouhavetodefineyourlf

我希望这里会有一本关于亲密的规则书，当你越线时，一些指导者可以告诉你，如果你能看到它的到来，

事情会变的更好，在一幅地图上，我不知道你怎样才能去合适它，你得到了，在你可以得到的地方...你能

保持多久就多久，作为规矩...或许这里没有，或许亲密的规则需要你自己去定义。

◆实习医生格蕾”第一季第七集

Maybewelikethepain.

Maybewe'rewiredthatway......becauwithoutit,

Idon'tknow......maybewejustwouldn'tfeelreal.

What'sthatsaying?

"WhydoIkeephittingmylfwithahammer?"

"BecauitfeelssogoodwhenIstop."

或许我们喜欢痛苦，或许我们期待那种方式。因为没有。我不知道，我们就不会感受到真实的一面，那什

么意思，“那我为什么不一直用锤子敲我的脑袋？”因为停下来感觉很好。

◆实习医生格蕾”第一季第八集

Youknowhowwhenyouwerealittlekidandyoubelievedinfairytales?

Thatfantasyofwhatyourlifewouldbe--whitedress,princecharming,who'dcarryyouaway

toacastleonahill.

You'dlieinbedatnightandcloyoureyes,andyouhadcompleteandutterfaith.

SantaClaus,thetoothfairy,princecharming--theyweresoclo,youcouldtastethem.

Buteventuallyyougrowup.

Onedayyouopenyoureyes,andthefairytaledisappears.

Mostpeopleturntothethingsandpeopletheycantrust.

Butthethingis,it'shardtoletgoofthatfairytaleentirely.

Caualmosteveryonestillhasthatsmallestbitofhope--offaith--thatonedaythey'llopen

theireyesanditwillallcometrue.

你知道你是小孩的r候，有多少相信童故事，幻想你的生活是，穿著白衣服，等著白R王子把你У缴缴系

某潜ぃ晚上]上眼睛在床上的r候，你就ψ约喝鲋e，你有完完全全^Φ男拍睿圣Q老人，牙仙，白R王

子，他x你如此之近，你都可以伸手抓住他，但是，最K你是L大了，一早晨，你_眼睛，所有的童故事

都消失了，大多等硕奸_始相信他所能蛳嘈诺氖拢但事上是，很y完全不相信童故事，每人有那么一cc信

念，一天，他_眼睛，一切都粝氤烧媪恕

◆实习医生格蕾”第一季第九集

Thethingpeopleforgetishowgooditcanfeelwhenyoufinallytcretsfree.

Whethergoodorbad,atleastthey'reoutintheopen...

likeitornot.

Andonceyourcretsareoutintheopen,youdon'thavetohidebehindthemanymore.

Theproblemwithcretsivenwhenyouthinkyou'reincontrol......You'renot.

人们不会在意的就是秘密揭开后你们会感觉非常好的，无论好坏，至少它被说出了...好坏都不重要了，自

从你的秘密不在秘密，你就不用再背负秘密了，秘密就有一个问题，你认为你能控制得了吗？其实你控制

不了。

◆实习医生格蕾”第二季第一集

Theysay"practicemakesperfect."

Theoryis,themoreyouthinklikeasurgeon,themoreyoubecomeone...

thebetteryougetatremainingneutral,clinical

cut,suture,clo...

andtheharderitbecomestolearntoturnitoff...

tostopthinkinglikeasurgeon...

Andrememberwhatitmeanstothinklikeahumanbeing.

有人f“熟能生巧”，原理是，你像外科大夫那铀伎迹你就能更像外科大夫...你自己越中立，熟，切_，p合，

P上...你越碓诫y[...停止像外科大夫那铀伎...e忘了像人那铀伎家馕吨什么。

◆实习医生格蕾”第二季第二集

There'ssomethingtobesaid

aboutaglasshalffull...

aboutknowingwhentosaywhen.

ithinkit'safloatingline,

abarometerofneedanddesire.

it'ntirelyuptotheindividual...

anddependsonwhat'sbeingpoured.

sometimes...

allwewantisataste.

othertimes,

there'snosuchthinganough.

Theglassisbottomless.

Andallwewant

ismore.

我的一个阿姨，无论她什么时候，给你任何东西都会说:“够了就说一声”当然我们从来都不说，我们不喊停，

因为是希望，有可能得到更多。

有些事值得考虑，关于半杯水...关于什么时候喊停，我认为那是一个需要和希望的，完全因人而异。有时

候，我们想要的只是尝一尝，别的时候，根本就没有满足，杯子是没有底的，我们想要的是，更多。

◆实习医生格蕾”第二季第四集

Sometimes,realityhasawayofsneakingup

andstingusintheass...

andwhenthedambursts,

allyoucandoisswim.

Theworldofpretendisacage,notacocoon.

Wecanonlylietoourlvesforsolong.

Wearetired.

Wearescared.

Denyingitdoesn'tchangethetruth.

Soonerorlater,wehavetoputasideourdenial

andfacetheworldhead-on,gunsblazing.

Denial...it'snotjustariverinEgypt.

It'safreakingocean.

有时候，现实有些鬼祟，在背后袭击我们...当大坝决口的时候，你所能做的就是游泳，伪装的世界是一个

鸟笼，而不是一个蚕茧，我们只能和自己长时间的撒谎，我们都很疲惫，我们也很恐惧，否认并不能改变

事实，或早或迟，我们必须把我们否认的放一边，面对迎面而来的世界，炙热的燃烧，否认...不仅仅只是

埃及的一条河流而已，那是个怪异的海流，那么你如何从中逃生呢？

如果你不示弱，你就会成为最强的。

我们仅仅看到我们愿意看到的，相信我们想信的，确实是这样的。我们老是在骗自己，而过了一会儿，这

些谎言开始看上去像真理的一样了，我们否认的太多，以至于不能辨认，就在我们面前的真相。

当你很接近的时候，很难接受结束。

◆实习医生格蕾”第二季第五集

Pain--youjusthavetorideitout,

hopeitgoesawayonitsown,

hopethewoundthatcauditheals.

So...here'swhereweare.

Therearenosolutions,noeasyanswers.

Youjustbreathedeepandwaitforittosubside.

Butsometimes,thepaingetsyouwhenyouleastexpectit...

Hitswaybelowthebeltanddoesn'tletup.

So...

Pain―

youjusthavetofightthroughbecauthetruthis,

youcan'toutrunitandlifealwaysmakesmore.

疼痛，你必须梃过来，期待它会自己消失不见，期待它导致的伤口自动愈合。根本就没有解决方法，没有

简单回答。你只能深呼吸，然后等待它下沉...大部分时候，疼痛可以控制。但是有时候，疼痛在你最不期

待的时候出现...疼痛来的不折手段而且无法停止。疼痛..你只需要奋力与之搏斗，因为事实是，你没办法

逃脱，而且生活只会制造更多的疼痛.

◆实习医生格蕾第二季第二十集

可是人生之路充满了不可预料的蜿蜒和转弯，当你站在那条路上的时候，你脚下的地面，会把你掀翻在地，

要是你足够幸运，你也许只会仅仅得到个小伤口，一个创口贴就能复原的伤口，可是有些伤口比当初看起

来的要深，需要比快速治疗更好的方法，对那些伤口，你只能撕掉创口贴，让它们自由呼吸，然后给它们

时间来自我治疗。

◆实习医生格蕾”第二季二十二集

你会有个孩子，你的生命将被这小生命所主宰，它是你的使命，你将会想，你所做的一切都不正确，这很

正常，你会困扰，怎么去喂养他，把他送到什么学校，他应该学钢琴还是小提琴，但是我要告诉你个秘密，

所有的这一切都不重要，无论他是钢琴家，还是数学天才，这都不重要，因为有一天，如果你的孩子开心，

所有的才有意义，你可能会感到难过，那没关系，那很正常，但是你不会永远伤心的，对不对？

生活是没有观众的比赛，无论赢，输或是平局，生活仍然会继续，不管我们是否想那样，因此还是大胆往

前走，和裁判理论，随意改变规则，可以作点弊。。休息一会儿，舔舔伤口，但是游戏还要继续，玩，玩

的尽兴。。玩的痛快。。轻松自在地玩，就想，没有明天一样的玩，好了，那么，这无关输赢，这只关系

你如何玩这游戏。

◆实习医生格蕾第二季第二十三集

有个聪明的男人曾经说过，在你一生可以拥有任何东西，如果你牺牲了其他的一切来得到这些，它的意思

就是，天下没有免费的午餐，所以，在你投入战斗之前，你最好知道自己要失去什么，太频繁的追逐感觉

不错的东西，意味着你要释放掉一些你所认为好的东西，让某个人进去，意味着放弃，你花了两年所筑的

墙，当然，最大的牺牲，是你都不知道自己失去了什么，也许它是最宝贵的，也许...结局你永远不知道

实习医生格蕾”第三季第四集

Thefantasyissimple

Pleasureisgood

Buttherealityisdifferent

Therealityisthatpainistheretotellussomething

Buttherearestillsomuchpleasurewecantakewithoutgettingastomachache

Andmaybethat’sok

Maybesomefantasyjustlieinthedreams

幻想是简单的，快乐是美好的，双倍快乐更好，痛苦是糟糕的，没有痛苦更好，但事实却大不相同，

事实是痛苦在那告诉我们些道理的，除了得胃痛我们还能得到很多快乐，也许那没什么，但幻想只该留在

我们梦里.

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第五集

First,donoharm

Easiersaidthandone

Wecantakeallthevowsintheworld

Butthefactis

Mostofusdoharmallthetime

Sometimevenwhenwe’retryingtohelp

Wedomoreharmthangood

Andtheguiltrearsandtheuglyhad

Whatyoudotothatguiltisuptoyou

Alltheleftischoice

Eitherlettheguiltthrowyoubackintothebehaviorthatgotyouintotroubleinthefirstplace

Orlearnfromtheguiltanddoyourbesttomoveon

首先不要伤害，说比做容易，即使我们信守誓言，我们很多时候还是会造成伤害，有时当我们想要

帮助别人时，总是适得其反，当罪恶感涌现，怎么处理视乎你本身，我们可以选择，要么让罪恶感将你带

回到导致麻烦的行为，从中吸取教训努力重新开始，要么让它吞噬你。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第六集

Therearetimevenwhenthebestofushastroublewithcommitments

Andwemaybesurpridbythecommitmentswearewillingto

letslipoutofourgrabs

Commitmentsarecomplicated

Wemaysurpriourlveswearewillingtomake

Toocommitmentstakeeffortsandsacrifice

Whichiswhysometimes

Wehavetolearnthehardwaytochooourcommitmentsverycarefully

很多时候，我们似乎不敢作出承诺，我们愿意将承诺说出，但说出之后却可能倍加以外，承诺很复

杂，也许我们会惊讶于自己心甘情愿所做的承诺，实现承诺需要努力，以及牺牲。所以有时，我们必须用

一种艰难的方法，仔细地选择我们的承诺。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第七集

Notallthewoundsaresuperfacial

Mostwoundsaredeeperthanweimagine

Youcan’tethemwiththenakedeye

Andthentherearewoundsthattakeusbysurpri

Thetrickwithanykindofwoundordiaistodigdownandfindtherealsourceofinjury

Andonceyoufindit,trylikeHeltohealthatsuffer

并不是所有伤害都是表面的，多数的伤害比我们能想象的更深，光靠眼睛是看不出来的，有时我们

冷不防就会遇到伤害，消除伤害或者疾病的窍门，是挖掘下去并找到伤害的真正来源，一旦找到....就尽力

去把问题解决。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第九集

Besomewhere,betrayisinevitable,

Whenourbodybetraysus

Surgeryisalsothekeytorecovery

Whenwebetrayeachother

Thepastrecoveryislessclear

Andtherearesomewounds,somebetraytheyaresodeep,soprofound

Butthereisnowaytorepairwhatwewerelost

有时，背叛是无法避免的，当身体背叛我们的时候，手术可以帮我们恢复，如果我们背叛彼此，当

我们背叛彼此后，要想恢复就不那么容易，我们竭尽全力去修补失去的信任，但有些伤害，背叛太深，影

响太大....我们无法找回我们失去的，如果真是这样....我们能做的就只有等待。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第十集

Attheendoftheday,whenitcomesdowntoit

Allwereallywantistobeclotosomebody

Sothisthing’sweallkeepourdistance

Andpretendnottocareabouteachother

It’susuallyaloudoffool

Sowepickandchoowhowewanttobecloto

Andoncewechothopeople

Wetendtobecloby

Nomatterhowmuchwehurtthem

Thepeoplestillwithyouattheendoftheday

Thoaretheonesworthkeeping

Andsometimes,clocan’tbetooclo

Butsometimes,thatinvasionofsomeone’spersonalspace

Itcouldbeexactlywhatyouneed

说到底，事实就是，我们真正想要的就是靠近某人...所以保持距离，假装彼此毫不关心之类的事，通

常都是愚蠢的空话，所以，我们挑选自己想保持亲近的人，一旦我们选择了这些人....就会希望紧紧相依，

无论对他们造成多大伤害，那些最终仍对你不离不弃的人，就是值得拥有的，当然，有时不能太过亲近....

但有时侵入个人空间，可能才是你真正需要的。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季十三集

Weallthinkwearegoingtobegreat

Andwefeelalittlebitrobedwhenourexpectationsaremet

Butsometimes,ourexpectationssoundshort

Sometimes,theexpectedsimplypalesincomparisontotheunexpected

Yougotwonderwhywecleantoourexpectations

Becautheexpectedisjustkeepsusstanding,standing,still

Theexpectedisjustthebeginning

Theunexpectediswhatchangesourlives.

我们总是以为我们会很好，而当我们的期望没有实现，就会感觉好像被掠夺了一样，但有时候，我

们的期望会略显悲观，有时，期望和意外之喜相比就逊色多了，你会奇怪为什么我们会这么依恋我们的期

望，因为正是有所期望，让我们可以站稳，坚持下去，期望，只是个开始，期望之外的，将改变我们的生

活。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第十七集

Wetakeourmiracleswherewefindthem

Wereachacrossthegap

Andsometimes

Againstallares

Againstalllogic

Wetouch

我们抓住找到的奇迹，在缝隙中挣扎，有时，虽然毫无可能...不合逻辑...但我们相信。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第十八集

What’swor

Newwoundswhicharesohorriblypainful

Oroldwoundsthatshouldhavehealedtheyearsagobutneverdid

Maybeouroldwoundsteachussomething

Theyreminduswherewe’vebeen

Andwhatweovercome

Theyteachuslessonsaboutwhattoavoidinthefuture

That’sweliketothink

Butthat’snotthewayitis,isit?

Somethingweneedjusthavetolearnoverandoverandoveragain

什么更糟糕，是新的伤口，那些更加疼痛的新伤口...还是那些愈合多年的旧伤口？也许旧伤会教会我

们一些东西，它们会提醒我们，我们去过哪，我们克服过什么，教给我们未来要避免什么，这是我们想要

考虑的，但它有时也不这样，不是么？有些事情...我们不得不学习，一遍，一遍，又一遍。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第二十集

Somepeoplebelievethat,withouthistory,ourlivesamounttonothing

Atsomepoint,weallhavetochoo

Dowefallbackwhatweknow?

Or,dowestepforwardtosomethingnew?

It’shardnottobehuntedbyourpast

Ourhistoryiswhatshapesus,whatguidesus

Ourhistoryresurfacestimeaftertimeaftertime

Sowehavetoremember

Sometimesthemostimportanthistory,

isthehistorywearemakingtoday

有人相信如果没有过去，我们的人生就失去了意义，我们最终都必须作出选择，我们是回复到从前

的旧我呢...还是...向前看找到新的天地，人很难摆脱过去，是过去磨练了我们，指引了我们，我们的过去

一次又一次浮现在眼前...所以我们必须谨记在心：有时那最重要的过去，便是今日我们正创造着的“过去”

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第二十一集

Toooften,thethingyouwantmostistheonethingyoucan’thave

Desireleavesusheart-broken

Itwearsusout

Desirecanrackyourlife

Butistoughaswantingsomethingcanbe

Thepeoplewhosufferedmost

Arethowhodon’tknowwhattheywant

很多时候，你最想得到的就是你无法拥有的，欲望，让我们心神俱碎，欲望，能毁了你的生活。和

欲求某物一样艰难的是....受苦最多的人...是那些不明白自己欲求何物的人。

◆实习医生格蕾”第三季第二十三集

Atsomepoint,maybeweacceptthedreamhasbecomeanightmare

Wetellourlvestherealityisbetter

Weconvinceourlvesit’sbetterthanweneverdreamatall

Butthestrongestofus,themostdeterminedofus

Weholdontothedream

Orwefindourlvesfacetothefreshdreamweneverconsidered

Weawaketofindourlvesagainstallalong,feelinghopeful

Andifwearelucky,werealize

Andthefaceofeverything,andthefaceoflife

Thetruedream,isbeingabletodreamatall

我们告诉自己现实更好，我们说服自己宁愿从来没有过梦，但我们最坚强的，最有魄力的...则是抱有

梦想，或者我们发现自己面对一个从未想过的新梦想，我们意识到自己...一反常态地...充满梦想。如果幸

运的话，我们会意识到...面对人生面对一切，那个真实的梦...正在从容上演。

实习医生格蕾台词4

◆实习医生格蕾第四季第一集

Inthepracticeofmedicine,uresare

updated,Levelsofexpertiincrea,Innovationiverything,Nothingremainsthesameforlong,We

eitheradapttochange,Orwegetleftbehind.

Change,wedon’tlikeit,wefearit,Butwecan’tstopitfromcoming,Weeitheradapttochange,Orwe

leftbehind,Ithurtstogrow,Anybodytellsyouitdoesn’t,he’slying,Andhere’sthetruth,Sometimes,the

morethingschange,themoredissuadething,Andsometimes,oh,sometimeschangeis

good,Sometimes,changeiverything.

从事医疗事业，改变是不可避免的。新手术技术的诞生，手术方法的改进，专业技巧的积累

创新就是一切，没有什麽是长久不变的。我们要么适应变化，要么落后于他人。

改变，是我们不喜欢的事，是我们惧怕的事，但我们阻止不了改变的到来，我们要么适应变化

要么落后于他人，成长都是痛苦的，谁说成长不痛苦都是骗人。而事实是，有时候，改变的越多，越会回

到原点，而有时候，改变是件好事，有时候，改变就是一切。

◆实习医生格蕾第四季第二集

Inthehospital,weeaddictioneveryday，It’sshockinghowmanykindsofaddictionexist

Itwouldbetooeasyifthereisjustdrugsandglusandcigarettes,Ithinkthehardestpartofkickingthe

habitisbelongingtokickit,Imeanwegetaddictedforreason,right?

Often,toooften,thingsthatstartoutarejustasanormalpartofyourlife,Atsomepoint,crosstheline,

tooobssive,compulsive,’sthehighwearechasing,thehighthatmakeeverythingel

fadeaway.

Thethingaboutaddictionisthatneverendswell,Becaueventually,wheneveritisthatwasgettingus

high,Stopsfeelinggoodandstartstohurt,Still,theysayyoudon’tkickthehappenuntilyouhittheblock

bottom,Buthowdoyouknowwhenyouwerethere?Becaunomatterhowbadlyathingwashurting

us,Sometimeslettingitgohurtvenwor.

在医院里，我们每天都能看到上瘾,上瘾的种类之多很令人震惊,如果只是吸毒，酗酒，抽烟之类的上瘾戒起

来倒也容易,戒掉一个习惯时最困难的地方就是下决心,我是说，之所以上瘾都是有原因的，对吧？很多时候，

起初并未沉迷，也未曾影响正常生活,然而，在某一刻就越了界，变得迷恋，情不自禁，最后失去控制,

上瘾就是因为这种沉醉感，让整个世界都黯然失色的沉醉感.

上瘾这种事，永远不会有好结果,因为到最后，那令我们沉迷的东西,都会失去作用，转而开始伤害我们,

但你还是无法戒掉坏习惯直到你的身心彻底跌到谷底,但你怎么知道什么时候才是谷底呢？因为不管事情

有多糟,有时候，顺其自然更令人受伤.

◆实习医生格蕾第四季第三集

Doctorsgivepatientsanumberofthings,Wegivethemmedicine;wegivethemadvice,Andmostofthe

time,Wegivethemourundividedattention,Butbyfar,thehardestthingyoucangivethepatientsisthe

truth,Thetruthishard,thetruthisawkward,andveryoftenthetruthhurts,Imeanpeoplesaytheywant

thetruth,butdotheyreally?

医生提供给病人很多东西，我们给与他们药物还有建议，而大部分时间我们给於他们专心的观察，但目前

最难给与病人的是真相,真相很现实，真相很难说出口，而且经常真相很伤人，我认为，人们说他们需要真

相，但他们真的需要吗？

Thetruthispainful;nobodywantstohearit,Especiallywhenit’shitclotohome,Sometimes,wetell

thetruth,becauthetruthisallwehavetogive,Sometimes,wetellthetruth,becauweneedtosayit

aloudtoreallyhearfromourlves,Andsometimes,wetellthetruth,becauwecan’thelp

ourlves,Wetellthem,becauweowethematleastthatmuch

事实是令人痛苦的，内心深处，没有人想听，特别是与家事有关的，有时候，我们讲真话，因为我们能给

与的只有事实而已,有时我们讲真话是因为，我们需要大声说出来让自己听见，有时我们讲真话，仅仅是因

为情不自禁，有时，我们讲真话，因为这是,我们最起码的责任。

◆实习医生格蕾第四季第四集

Inlife,onlyonethingiscertain,apartfromdeathandtaxes,Nomatterhowhardyoutry,Nomatterhow

goodyourintentionis,Youaregoingtomakemistakes,Youaregoingtohurtpeople,Youaregoingto

gethurt,Andifyoueverwanttorecover,Thereisreallyonlyonethingyoucansay,Well,Iforgiveyou

人生中，只有一件事情是确定的，除了死亡和税款，无论你多么努力的尝试，无论你的目的多么纯良，你

总是会犯错误，你会伤害他人，你也会被伤害，如果你还想好起来的话，事实上你所能说的只有一句话，

我原谅你

Forgiveandforget,That’swhattheysay,It’sagoodadvicebutnotverypractical,Whensomeonehurts

us,wewanttohurtthemback,Whensomeonearoundsus,wewanttoberightWithoutforgiveness,old

scoresareneverttled,Oldwoundsneverheal,Andthemostwecanhopefor,Isthatoneday,Wewill

beluckyenoughtoforget

原谅与遗忘，就像他们所说的，这是一个很好的建议，但是并不总可行，当有人伤害到我们的时候，我们

想要反击回去，当有人误会我们时，我们想要做对的事情，没有原谅，旧账难清，旧伤难愈，而我们期待

最多的是，某天我们很幸运的能做到遗忘。

404

Inlife,onlyonethingiscertain,apartfromdeathandtaxes

Nomatterhowhardyoutry

Nomatterhowgoodyourintentionis

Youaregoingtomakemistakes

Youaregoingtohurtpeople

Youaregoingtogethurt

Andifyoueverwanttorecover

Thereisreallyonlyonethingyoucansay

Well,Iforgiveyou

Forgiveandforger

That’swhattheysay

It’sagoodadvicebutnotverypractical

Whensomeonehurtsus,wewanttohurtthemback

Whensomeonearoundsus,wewanttoberight

Withoutforgiveness,oldscoresareneverttled

Oldwoundsneverheal

Andthemostwecanhopefor,

Isthatoneday

Wewillbeluckyenoughtoforget

405

Thereisreasonssurgeonslearntouscalpels

Weliketopretendwearehardcoldscientists

Weliketopretendwearefearless

Butthetruthis,webecomesurgeonsbecausomewheredeepdown

Wethinkwecancutawaythatwhichcharsus

Weakness,frailty,death

Isn’tjustsurgeons,

ThetruthisIdon’tknowanyonewhoisunconcernedsomething,orsomeone

Andwhetherwetrytoslicethepainawaywithscalpel

Orshutitinthebackoftheclot

Oureffortsusuallyfail

Sotheonlywayweclearupthepainistoturnanewpage

Orputtheoldstorytorest

Finally,finallytorest

406

Thereisthisthingaboutbeingasurgeon

Maybeit’spride,ormaybeit’sjustaboutbeingtough

Butrealsurgeonneveradmitstheyneedhelpunlessabsolutelynecessary

Surgeonsdon’tneedtoaskforhelp,becautheyaretougherthanthat

Surgeonsarecowboys,rougharoundtheedges,hardcore

Atleast,that’swhattheywantyoutothink

Deepdown,everyonewantstobelievetheycanbehardcore

Butbeinghardcoreisn’tjustaboutbeingtough

It’saboutacceptance

Youdon’thavetobetougheveryminuteofeveryday

It’soktoletdownyourguard

Infact,therearemomentswhenit’sthebestthingyoucanpossiblydo

Aslongasyouchooyourmomentswily

407

Beforeweweredoctors,wearemedstudents

Whichmeantwespentlotoftimestudyingchemistry

Organchemistry,biochemistry,welearneditall

Butwhenyoutalkabouthumanchemistry

Onlyonethingmatters

Eitherifyougotit

Oryoudon’t

Chemistry

Eitherifyougotit

Oryoudon’t

408

Therecomesthepointtoyourlife,

Whenyouofficiallyasanadult

Suddenly,youareoldenoughtovote,drinkandengageinotheradultactivities

Suddenly,peopleexpectyoutoberesponsible

Seriousagrown-up

Wegettaller,wegetolder,butdoweeverreallygrowup?

Insomeways,wegrowup

Wehavefamilies,wegetmarried,divorced

Butforthemostpart,westillhavethesameproblemthatwedidwhenwewerefifteen

Nomatterhowmuchwegrowtaller,growolder

Wearestillforeverstumbling

Foreverwondering

Foreveryoung

409

Wegointomedicinebecauwewanttosavelives

Wegointomedicinebecauwewanttobegood

Wegointomedicinefortherush,forthehigh,fortheride

Butwhatwerememberattheendofmostdaysaretheloss

Whatwelayawakeatnightweplayingis

Thepainwecost,orthefailtocure,orthelifewemoveindoorandfailtosave

Sotheexperienceandpracticeinmedicinerarestourmostgoal

Experiencetoooftenisassbackwards,andupsidedown

Chief:That’sthejob,lookatme,thisday,thisdayyoufeelhelpless,thisdaymakesallthoothe

rdayswhenyoufighttosavelivesandyoulo,thisdaymakesyougratefulyouhaveachanceto

doanythingatall,youtakeitin.

410

Attheendoftheday,theexperienceofpracticingmedicinebearsthelittlestremblestothedrea

m

Wegointomedicinebecauwewanttosavelives

Wegointomedicinebecauwewanttodogood

Wegointomedicinefortherush,forthehigh,fortheride

Butwhatwerememberattheendofmostdaysaretheloss

Whatwelayawakeatnightreprayingis

Thepainwecost,ortheillwecouldn’tcure,thelivesweruinorfailtosave

Theendoftheday,therealityisnotinglikewehope

Therealityis,attheendoftheday,lawoftenthannotturnedinsideout,andupsidedown

Somedays,thewholeworldemsupsidedown

Andthen,somehow,improbably,andwhenyouatleastexpected,

TheworlddrivesitlfagainI'venotbeensoexcitedforsolong!

It'stooooooonicetowatchGAagain!

Now,let''sphilosophy!

411

Inthebeginning,Godcreatedtheheavenandtheearth

Atleast,that’swhattheysay

Hecreatedthebirdsoftheairandthebeastofthefields

Andhelookedathiscreation,andhethoughtthatitwasgood

Andthen,Godcreatedtheman

Andithasbeendownhelleversince

ThestorygoesontosaytheGodcreatedthemanashisownimage

Butthere’snotmuchproveofthat

Afterall,theGodmadethesunthemoonandthestars

Andallmanmakesistrouble

Asdoctors,weknowmoreaboutthehumanbodynowthanatanyotherpointinourhistory

Butthemiracleoflifeitlf—whypeopleliveanddie,whytheyhurtorgethurt—isstillamyster

y

Wewanttoknowthereason,thecret,theansweratthebackofthebook

Becauthethoughtof“Iwillbeallalonedownhere”isjusttoomuchforustobear

Butattheendoftheday,

thefactthatweshowupforeachotherinspiteofourdifferences,nomatterwhatwebelieve,isre

asonenoughtokeepbelievingSorry,IwasoverwhelmedbythehappinessofGA'scomingback

Imisd2ntencesupstairs,andhere'stheintegratededition

YoucanethatthespeakingstyleofBaileyisquitedifferentfromMeredith's^^

411

Inthebeginning,Godcreatedtheheavenandtheearth

Atleast,that’swhattheysay

Hecreatedthebirdsoftheairandthebeastofthefields

Andhelookedathiscreation,andhethoughtthatitwasgood

Andthen,Godcreatedtheman

Andithasbeendownhelleversince

ThestorygoesontosaytheGodcreatedthemanashisownimage

Butthere’snotmuchproveofthat

Afterall,theGodmadethesunthemoonandthestars

Andallmanmakesistrouble

Andwhenmanfindshimlfintrouble,whichismostofthetime,heturnstosomethingbiggerth

anhimlf

Toloveorfateorreligion

Tomakenofitatall

Butforasurgeon,theonlythingthatmakesanykindofnismedicine

Asdoctors,weknowmoreaboutthehumanbodynowthanatanyotherpointinourhistory

Butthemiracleoflifeitlf—whypeopleliveanddie,whytheyhurtorgethurt—isstillamyster

y

Wewanttoknowthereason,thecret,theansweratthebackofthebook

Becauthethoughtof“Iwillbeallalonedownhere”isjusttoomuchforustobear

Butattheendoftheday

Thefactthatweshowupforeachother,inspiteofourdifferences,nomatterwhatwebelieve,isr

easonenoughtokeepbelieving

412

Iliketothinkthatwearerationalbeings

Humaning,conscientious,civilized,thoughtful

Butwhenthingsfallapart,evenjustalittle

Itbecomesclear,wearenobetterthananimals

Wethink,wewalkdirect,wespeak,wedream

Butdeepdown,weareallstillruingaroundintheprimordialwoops

Chief:Stevens,myyear,Ilostby2points,youdidn’testisalionfight

,sochinup,putyourshouldersback,walkproud,’tmakeyourwounds,celebrat

ethem,thescaryoubeararethesignofcompetitor,you’reinalionfight,Stevens,justbecauyo

udidn’twindoesn’tmeanyoudon’tknowhowtorule.

Thereisalittleanimalinallofus

Andmaybethat’ssomethingtocelebrate

Ouranimalinstinctiswhatmakesusekcomfort,warm,andapartrunwith

Wemayfeelcaged,wemayfeeltrapped

Butstill,ashumans,wecanfindwaystofeelfree

Weareeachother’skeepers

Wearetheguardiansofourownhumanity

Andeventhoughthere’sabeastinsideallofus

Whattsusapartfromanimalsisthatwecanthink,feel,dreamandlove

Andagainstourlost,againstourinstincts

Weevolve.

413

Greatsurgeonsaren’tmade,theyareborn

Ittakesgestation,incubation,sacrifice,alotofsacrifice

Butafterallthebloodandguts,somegoopstuffarewashedaway

That’sthesurgeonyoubecome

Totallyworthit

Givingbirthmaybeallintenandmagicalinstuff

Butactitlf,it’snotexactlypleasant

Butit’salsoabeginningofsomethingincredible

Somethingnew

Somethingunpredictable

Somethingtrue

Somethingworthloving

Somethingworthmissing

Somethingthatwillchangeyourlife,forever

414

There’sthisperson,inmyhead

She’sbrilliant,capable

Shecandochesttubesandcraniotomies

Shecanrunacopewithoutfreakingout

She’sareallygoodsurgeon,maybeevenagreatsurgeon

She’sme,onlysomuchbetter

Itwasagoodday,maybeevenagreatday

Iwasagooddoctor,evenwhenitwashard

Iwasthemeinmyhead

TherewasamomentwhenIthoughtIcan’tdothis

Ican’tdothisalone

ButIclomyeyes,andimaginedmylfdoingit

AndIdid,Iblockoutthefear,andIdidit

415

Theproblemwithbeingaresidentisyoufeelcrazyallthetime

Youhaven’tsleptinyears

Youspendeverydayaroundthepeopleinthenestofcrisis

Uyourabilitytojudgewhat’snormal

Inyourlforanyoneel

Andyetpeopleareconstantlyaskingyoutotellthemhowtheyaredoing

Howthehellyousuppotoknow?

Youdon’tevenknowhowyouaredoing

Don’twonderwhypeoplegocrazy

Wonderwhytheydon’t

Andfaceofallwecanloinaday

Inaninstant

Wonderwhatthehellitis

ThatmakeusholdtogetherCristina,Icouldpromi,toholdyouandtocherishyou.

Icouldpromi,tobethereinsicknessandinhealth.

Icouldsaytilldeathdousapart.

ButIwon't.

Thovowsareforoptimisticcouples,theonesfullofhope.

AndIdonotstandhereonmyweddingdayoptimisticorfullofhope.

Iamnotoptimistic,Iamnothopeful,Iamsure,Iamsteady.

AndIknow,I'maheartman,takethemapart,putthembacktogether,Iholdtheminmyhands.I

amaheartman.

Sothis,Iamsure,youaremypartner,mylover,myverybestfriend.

Myheart,myheartbeatsforyou.

Andonthisday,thedayofourwedding,Ipromiyouthis,Ipromiyoutolaymyheartinthep

almofyourhands.

Ipromiyou,ME.

416-417

Mymotherudtosay,thatforasurgeon,adaywithoutdeathisarealgift

Everyday,wefacedeath

Everyday,welolife

Everyday,we’rehopingforastayofexecution

Weareattachedtodeath

Chainedlikeprisoners,captors

S05E01-02

Weallrememberthebedtimestoriesofourchildhoods,thatshoefitsCinderella,thefrogturnsint

oaprince,onatime,andthentheylivedhappilye

ales,thestaffofdreams,theproblemisfairytalesdon’otherst

ories,theonesthatbeginwithdarkandstorminnightsand

'sonthatinv

entsthephra“happilyeverafter”shouldhavehisasskickedsohard.

Onceuponatime,happilyeverafter,alesdon't

yismuchstormier,muchmurkier,yissomuchmoreinterest

ingthanlivinghappilyeverafter.

S05E03

Assurgeons,we’retrainedtofixwhat’akingpointisourstartinglineatwork.

Butinourlives,’lldoeverythingwecantoavoid

it.

Bonesbreak,organsburst,ewtheflash,repairthedamage,

whenlifebreaksdown,whenwebreakdown,there’snoscience,ha

surgeon,there’snothingworandthere’snothingbetter.

S05E04

In6500BC,someguylookedathissickfriendandsaid:”Ihaveanidea,whydon’tIdrillaholein

yourskull,it’llmakeyoufeelbetter.”Andthus,scertainbrainofcrazyt

ocomeupwithanidealikedrillingintosomebody’sskull,butsurgeonshavealwaysbeenaconfi

llyknowwhatwe’redoing,andwhenwedon’

lkboldlyintoundiscoveredcountry,’sinvigorati

ngandterrifying.

Weliketothinkwe’refearless,eagertoexploreunknownlands,soakupnewexperiences,butthe

factis,we’oplegotohorror

hingsopen,heendoftheday,isn’tthatwouldyoura

therhearabout,ifyou’vegot1drinkand1friendin45minutes?Smoothridesmakeforboringst

ecalamity,that’sworthtalkingabout.

S05E05

’sthemantraofprettymucheverysurgeonI’

tothinkwe’reindependent,loners,lweneedtodoourjobisanOR,ascalpel,a

truthis,ylikelifeisatea

ntually,you’amareyoubettingfor

?

Thethirstpic

kcanbeterrified,andbeingchonlastisn’tchfromthesi

delines,eweknowthesoonwegetgoofthebench,someoneco

mesalongandchangesthegamecompletely.

S05E06

Forasurgeon,’reourterrain,whereweadvance,retreat;trytor

twhenyouthinkyou’vewonthebattle,madetheworldsafeagai

n,alongcomesanotherlandmine.

thewarsare

nothingcomparedtothemostfrighteningwarofall,theoneyouhaveyetfight.

S05E07

Ifyouareanormalperson,ouarea

surgeon,ongit,wedeny

danddefiantlygivedeaththefinger.

Weareborn,welive,wedie,hingstorest,onlyto

athisnottheend,whatcanwecountonanymore?Becauyou’

resurecan’themostfragile,unstable,unpredictablethingtherei

,thereisonlyonethingaboutlifewecanbesureof.

S05E08

It’vesontheline,andyou’repokingyourbrainlikethe

y’’reformedabindwiththesurgeonsrightnexttoyou,anunbreakable,indescri

’ryoulikeitornot,whetheryouliket

hemornot,youbecomeafamily.

nnecteduvenafteritemsli

ndsdefinedistances,andtime,andlogic,becausometies

aresimplymeanttobe.

S05E09

Whenyou’relittle,nighttimeisscary,

nyougetolder,themonstersaredifferent,lfdoubt,loneliness,ughyoumaybeol

derandwir,youstillfindyourlfscareofthedark.

somanyofus,sleepemsoutof

it,butwedon’ewefaceourdemons,faceourfe

ars,imeisn’tsoscarybecauwerealizewearenotallalon

einthedark.

S05E10

Mothercallsitthegreatestandmostterrifyingmomentinherlife,standingattheheadofthesurgi

caltable,knowingthatthepatient’’swhatwealldreamabo

utbecauthefirstpersonthatgetstoflysolointheOR,kindofbadass.

rythingthathappensinbetweenwealway

help,weneedsupportotherwiwe’reinitbyour

lves,strangers,ead,

wecholove,wecholife,and,foramoment,wefeeljustalittlebitlessalone.

S05E11

Weallgetatleastonegoodwishayear,overthecandlesonourbirthday,someofusthroughinm

ore,oneyelashes,fountains,rynowandthen,oneofthowishescomestrue.

Sowhatthen,isthisasgoodaswe’dhoped?Dowebaskingthewarmglowofhappiness?Ordo

wejustnoticewe’vegotalonglistofotherwisheswaitingtobewished.

Wedon’twishfortheeasystuff,wewishforbigthings,thingsareambitious,

hbecauweneedhelpandwe’lwish

thoughbecausometimestheycometrue.

S05E12

Mymotherudtosaythisaboutresidency:ittakesayeartolearnhowtocut;ittakesalifetimet

fthetoolsonthesurgicaltrade,soundjudgmentisthetrickiestonetomaste

r,andwithoutit,wealljusttoddlersrunningaroundwith10blades.

We’rehuman,wemakemistakes,wemissusdemeaned,nasurgeonma

gethurt,ruggleovereverystitc

h,ethesnapjudgments,theonesthatcometousquicklyan

deasilywithouthesitation,theyaretheonesthathauntusforever.

S05E13

Ibelieveinheaven,Ialsobelieveinhell.I’ve

toexist,becauwithoutaheaven,withoutahell,wealljustheadingforlimbo.

Heaven,hell,limbo,noonereallyknowswherewe’regoing,whatwaswaitingforuswhenwege

re’sonethingwecansayforsurewithabsolutecertaintyistherearemomentsthey

takesustoanotherplace,befornow,that’sallweneedtok

now.

S05E14

Agheartcould

ithatfluttes

oronethatskipsabeatcouldbeasignofacretafflictionoritcouldindicateromancewhichis

thebiggesttroubleofall.

ionscanchangewithoutwarn

ing;iccanmakeitstopcoldinyou

’snowonderdoctorsspendsomuchtimetryingtokeeptheheartstable,tokeepitslow,

steady,regular,tostoptheheartfrompoundingoutofourchest,fromthedreadofsomethingterri

bleortheanticipationofsomethingelentirely.

Se6

1:Meredith:Ipickyou,'tgettodieonme!

2:Derek:skilledmyfatherforhis

'tbecomeadoctorbecauIwantedtobe

lookatmeintheeye.

I'istakes,I'mflawed,thinkforyouisjustamistake.

'

youeinmine?Canyou?

3:Meredith:[独白]Formostpeople,where

oplewouldpreferchurch,orschool,orhome,butIgrewuphere.

Whilemymomwasonrounds,IlearnedtoreadintheORgallery,Iplayedinthemorgue,I

alwasmychurch,myschool,myhome;hospital

wasmysafeplace,tion:lovedithere.

4:Richard:I'velived.I'vereallyreallylived.I'vefailed.I'vebeendevastated.I'vebeenbroken.

I'''

'sa...'

questionis,areyou?Alifeinprisonoranafterlife...u?Yourchoice.

5:Derek:[独白]rgivein.

I'die.

That''snotalwaysinourhands.

6:Derek:[独白]n

tortogive

''snotalwaysinourhands.